I have a ‘write a post!’ yellow post-it note sticking to my desk phone at office and my DVD box (which lies besides my bed) at home. And still I managed to ignore it for a month. Hehe. The reason I didn’t post for a full month, besides my laziness, is a month full of drama. Yeah total DRAMA. Here is a list of the elements of the drama:
The ‘circle of friends’
It is complicated. All relations I have known till today are based on mutually accepted delusion, I can tell you. It is plain give and take. Gone are the days when friends were selfless friends. Okay I am making it a tad over-dramatic, but what the hell – I am enraged by m complicated friendships. And an added advantage to this particular circle is my master’s degree in complicating relationships. And I get so messed up at times that I end up being the one responsible for all the shit.
So Relationships + Me = Complications = My giving up = No relationships for me.
See? Its complicated.
I am broke. You may ask –Again? My answer is – Yes, again. Have so many things to do, God knows how am I going to handle my bankruptcy. I hope that in a very dramatic fashion, some filthy rich person who loooooves my blog, reads this religiously (that is, whenever I post) and finds me really adorable (have I ever posted my picture here?) and decides to write me an anonymous cheque. Don’t give me that look now. I get anon comments and anon mails all the time, why not an anon cheque? Hmph.
The Best Friend’s Wedding
So Sheetal’s got married. She fell in love and moved out of the house we lived in so happily. Only if I was a lesbian, I would have never let her go. Damn! Man, I feel so lonely in the city of desire -Gurgaon and what’s more is, that now since I cannot keep the huge flat all on my own, I have to shift. What the hell. I’ll miss my space (one room of sleeping and other 2 rooms of laundry) and I’ll miss Sheetal so damn much. Think about it, I anyway dont have a boyfriend to trouble, the scene with ‘friends’ has gotten bad and now Sheetal too is leaving. She told me this is to make space for something better in my life. Ya right! Is all this drama really necessary to change my life? I don’t believe that one bit. This is unfair Mr. Universe!! (Sheetal introduced me to the Law of Universe – more about that later).
The work-place Issues
If that was not enough, my work has started giving me problems. Joy to the world! (Cant write more about it, my meant-for-private-consumption blog is quite a rage in my office, haha)
I have lost all interest in facebook. I mean seriously! My status has not been updated for like a week now and I have not been sending out any new feed. No activity. uhuu. Can anyone believe it? Well, those who are in my friends list will not believe it, I know. Is this a sign that I will gradually lose all interest in life? In food? In gossip? Hell!
The Dream World Problems
My dream world has always been my escape and my favorite destination and my biggest strength but somehow my dream world has also got the virus recently. My dreams are so much close to reality, I want to puke! Now you agree with me, this surely is dangerous, right? Sigh.
The ‘Whatever’ Mode
Okay, I always used ‘whatever’ as a complete sentence, but the ‘Whatever’ mode is taking over my entire social life now – or whatever is left of my social life. I refuse to go clubbing with friends and prefer lying in my bed doing nothing. I haven’t gone to a dance floor in like a 1000 years now and I haven’t checked out a single guy since I can recall (well, leaving the hot guy in Times of India office today – but he looked so taken). To all the above, my instant reaction is ‘WHATEVERRRRR!’ I look like a complete badass at work and I don’t seem to care. I don’t dress up, my eye liner has dried due to non-usage (if that’s possible), I am thinking to get my hair cut really short because I don’t want to take care of long hair and all, I don’t change ear-rings anymore and most importantly, I have not got any expensive lingerie for ages.
Seriously, who is this person anyway? This cannot be me!
Gawd, I want some action in my life and no drama – Or I’ll die of boredom. Or lack of make-up. Maybe due to over dose of painful – cruel – shallow – disgusting drama?
I end my non-post here. Will be back soon with something exciting to share. Take care and get a grip before you are compelled to write a post like this one. 🙂